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Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 11:41 AM
today alot thing happen. it was suppose a happy thing as, our new tv is here. i almost forgotten about it, until ergu told me. i worried about my dad& agong. i guess, his birthday this year will not be as happy. i just hope everyone would be healthy. and that nobody more would leave me. i now hope xiaogu could come and visit agong.
xiaogu is the closest to agong and could talk to him about it. but i guess she would not come so soon. she too lost a love one. now agong is cooking our lunch/breakfast for us. i felt ashame that i could do nothing to help. please god; let them be happy from the bottom of their heart.
just receive new that my dabo is gone. he died yesterday night, and we got the news today morning. ergu came to give agong this news. she cried, i was just shock. agong looks ok. but i am sure he is not. it make me worries, i fear agong might just collapse.
when ergu wants to make a call to dad to tell him this. i became terrify, dad was sad when dabo got into that accident. dad make a point to visit him everyday. he came home thinking of ways to make dabo stay at the hospital better.& he keep thinking of the time they used to spent tgt. yesterday, he had a call with xiaogu thinking that should go visit dabo on sun.after that call his mood so called suddenly turn down. 2 day ago. dad mention he maybe won't live till his 50th birthday. which is like 21dec2009. { death of whatever make me cry for a day. } but this makes me cry till now. i'm terrify, then i remember job{the service by pst kong}. which makes me super stress out. for this i cried for an hour plus. DUMB* called& sms yunrui to get the thing right. & god is good, have faith in him. yesterday after that call. i thought about the death thing again. i cried for another 30min, until my dad came back. i'll never make it a point that anyones know that i'm crying. i don't know what might happen. i don't know whether my dad& agong can take it. they have the same attitude as me. we never show our problem unless, we really super cannot take it anymore. i fear that they might just collapse.
i'm not going out or anything this few day, i keeping my eyes on them. as i fear that they might just leave me. &i don't want that to happen. yunrui&alicia; death is the reason why i don't want to go for sentosa trip today. not the death of dabo{since i don't know his had died at 10.30} but the fear of death, that i might lose them.
{my front size for the chalet finally change to small le.} btw, for more information on what happen during the chalet. feel free to visit DARREN, FENGKUN, BRYAN, SAMANTHA's blog the time i post for the chalet also bit GUAi, cause at that time i still at chalet... should be post on 10dec2009. this post is post at 12dec2009, 1312. off to church now, late le... {nvm, anqi for sure later than me.} MUAHAHAHA
back from chalet :DD had a great time. 1 day was DULL ; make me feel like going home the next day because i felt super weird. we playing alot of stuff. STRESS, { which make Darren laugh[don't know why??] } Brenda's "name game" {which make our head& mouth mixes.} at night we can't sleep. to not make those who wanna sleep wake up. we go walkwalk in PasirRis Park. the walking distance is like 30min. we when at 3plus a.m. then when back at 7plus a.m. didn't manage to is the SUN in the sunrise.. 2nd day. those who when to walkwalk that they went to sleep. but i can't sleep!! so just close eyes. & watch the people gamble. MUAHAHAHA btw, they gamble for 3DAYS&2NIGHT, siaosiaosiaosiao/// frankly speaking i don;t like the 2nd day. {not saying why} F.I.Y i got 2 marking on my hand cause my CCP. HATE HIM!!!HATRED* FREAK but it is not the reason ^^ &xueting is not the reason too :X we went for KTV too, which causes most of us "PORKGAI." SINGSINGSINGSINGSING 2nd night. xueting wanted to sleep down there with the boys so i got the whole single bed to myself! MUAHAHA & i manage to sleep.[ Samantha said i shuo meng hua ..} don't know lar. before i sleep bryan& "gangs" prank call the lvl1 people :S super funny de. 3rd day when et breakfast & when for escape theme park. cause we have 8 free ticket mah. * chosen ones are... FENGKUN; DARREN; BRYAN; SAMANTHA; JIAXIN; KAILI; AMIR; AMI; Brenda not included cause she need rush off. & when off early. i love SHOUTING AT THE VIKING BOAT. haunted will be scarier if real people are added. plus the music very scary. i cover ear& keep shouting AAHHHH, i not scared of you!! lols DUMB* baby rollercoaster. my head like going drop lor. lastly the car one lar. very little right cause, fengkun parent coming le :(( NVM LAR. {never blame you hor, fengkun.} :PP i think i will post the pic on facebook within this WEEK. GTG, miss 3 days the 1.N.2.D. ~~ KAIhates; CP
siansian. not going for grandma house le. just now dad called, said he at woodlands, ask me whether wants to go grandma house i said no. reason1; today's planned to go grandma's house de. but mum just called. said she will be going on her own. then i need go on my own too. so i SIAN lar. then told her that i tmr got the class chalet thingy. plus tmr morning also got ODAC. so she ask me whether i still want go. so i said no. :X WTH lar.... {stupid mouth.} reason2; i wanted to continue my 1.N.2.D. STUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID. now feeling super guilty after what dad said. Me; but, i got the chalet thingy tmr leh Dad; then got chalet cannot go ahma's house lar. Me; don;t know lah. Dad; then u say you wanna go ahma's house anot. Me; {so called shout} bu yao le lar. [me& my bad temper had cause the problem AGAIN!] FREAK! i have not changed abit. guess it is no use.
god's love is so great, his love brought us to our true -self. he changes us, to a better person. i made a decision on 311109 to change. & i did it on 011209. just i when blogging on pst; kong's blog. and rewatch the video, of the deeds of CHCSA tears begin to fall unwilling. god help us, to show our love to people CHCSA brings them their daily needs which brought them their smile. we, servants of god; should help people beyonds the four walls of our church. should show our loves to people& help them as we could. it may means nothing to you, but to them, you gave them happy pills. you who is willing to gave up your time for them you who is willing to visit them without fail you who is willing to care for them even though they are not your kins you who is willing to accompany them& bring them out of their darkest days. you who is the man of god& serves him without fails. God, he so love the world that he gavehis only begotten son , for us. so want more can we do, but to serve him&his people. {listen to pst. kong's words at his blog, at the broadcast tv.} that even CHINESE [ china ] long ago believes in GOD.
